finally i can logged in to blogger. WAM PA TAN! Thank god that i can update this soon-to-be-dilapidated-freaking-blog of mine because i will no longer blog that often. Only as and when i like. The hype of blogging is not like the past. i have been trying to log in and post an entry for my blog readers but unfortunately, after attempting so many tries, the system just woulnd't let me enter. Perhaps, it hates me. =D Life during holiday is PLAIN BORING! Although i have activities lined up for me to be involved, i just simply have no mood to do all that. Lets break up the things i want to say.
This post may be sentimental.
Personal life...
I have been accompanying zul everyday early in the morning for jogging. He jogs, i r-blade. He needs to loose weight, i need to gain weight. The moment i start running, my weight would decrease manifold. So those who wants to loose weight/slim down, join us. Be prepared to wake up at 0500hrs! Im quite happy with my bod now =))) But got to train harder to be in better shape.
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Silat...
it has been a long journey. My batch is the pioneer batch of the centre. I have been with this centre for close to 8 years now. Time really flies. i rejoined the club in march this year after taking a 1 year-long break. I only attend training for like 1 month and afterwhich i took a break again for 4 months to better prepare myself for the N level. I would go back for training this coming saturday onwards to keep myself occupied besides rollerblading, badminton-ing and hitting the gym. There would be a seni competition this late nov or december i think. Sadly, im not taking part in it this time. Not prepared for it. I just walk over.
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Love...
i've been to many blog and the common thing i saw that made me wonder is this phrase " LOVE IS IN THE AIR" What the heck. Love is only in the air if you are together with your loved ones and when you both are an item. Other than that, if you are with friends or someone close, FRIENDS is in the air. I know this sounds lame, weird, crap. I don't give a shit to this. Besides, the love we are experiencing at this stage is mutual love. You love a friend through a mutual friend of yours. Not the ideal one for you. Unless both declares their heart/feelings, that is a different case. Im just stating a fact. Its GOOD TO BE LOVED THAN TO love. It is better that people shower you with love and you return your love to him/her instead of you loving someone and that someone don't give a damn to your feelings. This feeling really SUCKS man! Not hitting at a specific person but in GENERAL. We all have experience this feeling before!
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The past...
yesterday, as i couldn't sleep, i decided to clean my drawer in the middle of the night when everyone was fast asleep. As i was clearing the content in it, an envelope with full of birthday, christmas and raya cards caught my attention. I took a deep breathe before opening the lit of the envelope. As i was reading it one by one, it reminds me of the past that i used to share with the people closed to me regardless of the race. They know who they are. I don't have to name them down. Its been a unforgettable year last year as i received numerous cards, presents from you people. That was because we are a family in S.C and therefore we make it a point to celebrate whoever bdae. But now, we're parting. Are we going to be like the past while we were in the S.C? Im longing for that day to come where everyone gathers and contribute laughter. I don't know. Only GOD knows what will happen next.
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About yesterday...
Im utterly dissappointed in some of my f.....ds who labelled themselves as brothers. You know what Brothers mean? A group of people staying close to each other regardless in times of crisis and through thick and thin. Never leave a 'friend' in the lurch when they ARE IN TROUBLE. Everytime without fail, whenever i want to go out, i would ask them along and none are free. As a result, i went out alone. I don't mind cause i know their answers would be 'not free'.
Take a case like yesterday, after much persuation, i went out alone to get a present for a special friend of mine. So i went to town alone. Thank god im independent or else i don't know what will happen to me. Going out alone is quite a pleasant thing. You have the freedom of not being to be hurried by your friend. That's all i have to say.
FRIENDS COME AND GO AS THEY LIKE. LEAVING YOU BEHIND WHEN THEY HAVE FOUND ANOTHER GROUP OF FRIENDS.
Don't blame me for being not sociable at times.
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Stay tune for the next episode! ( 2-3 weeks later)
im in (love) right now. With someone special. Only God knows where we're heading to next.
changing the course of my life
into something special...